Paris

As I inhaled the fresh crisp air of a Paris summer night, I felt as if I was being cleansed. Standing on a cobble stone walk-way all the worries, fears, and stress of my life didn't seem to matter as i stood there with nothing to say.
Speechless... I was speechless.

I watched the world pass me by as if I didn't exist.
I was pure. I had done no harm. Nor did I have any regrets.
I bet this is what heaven felt like.
Here I can see, I can explore, I can dream, and i can feel. I can do things I never though were possible.

These days most peoples' dreams turn into fairy tales.
You meet your prince charming, He'll sweep you off your feet, you two will get married and you live happily ever after. The End.
Touching. But not original.
But my fairy tale is much different.
My fairy tale is my dream. It fits me as if it was made for me.

I'm still young, My imagination still flows through out my body. I view the world through two brown eyes that are still learning. Eye's that hunger for something new to look at.
Inspiration was the main reason i came here to Paris. I needed something different. I needed fate to slap me in the face and take me where i needed to go.
Here very moment i believe that it was fate for me to be in this very spot. Who knows why. But why do i need a reason? If I don't resist. Fate will take me down the path designed for me. Having to leave Paris leaves me with a sad heart. But the inspiration will carry with me and I'm blessed.

I couldn't of asked for a better opportunity.
Thank you <3

The Real Me

I've deceived most people into looking at me how i want, seeing me with a mask. But in reality.. the real me.. has a-whole-nother face. One that is not shown a lot of the time.

I'm not rich,
I'm not glamorous,
I don't always know what to say,
and I'm sure as hell not perfect.

If you really knew me, you'd know that i struggle with learning big time. Ever since i was 8 years old, it was all down hill from there. My brain is slower now and has really effected me and my daily life.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I definitely stand up for what I believe. And I can be very blunt. You'd know how much people can mean to me and how I would do anything in the world for them, I get very protective!

If you really knew me you'd know how much i hate liars and people who talk about me behind my back, if you have a problem with me or anyone i care about say it to my face and we will get it settled right then and there. You'd know that i have come to learn that i don't care what people think of me. I can't please everyone and if your not even worth my time I'm not going to give a second.

If you really knew me, you'd know I can be really sensitive. Especially when elderly (older) people yell at me. I feel like I've been put on blast and I've disappointed them. You'd know that i cry more then you think. And i hate crying, especially in public.

You'd know how truly scared i am of growing up, moving on, moving out, and moving forward. You'd know how much i just want to be the best person i can be. I've come to realize that god gave me a second chance at life for a reason. I have a purpose here in this life and I'm not going anywhere til I've accomplished all that. Life is so fragile and so short that I can't take it for granted.

If you really knew me you'd know that i'm still trying to figure out who i am and where i wanna go. But i'm not in a hurry.

Jealousy

jeal·ous·y

 /ˈdʒɛləsi/ Show Spelled[jel-uh-see] 

noun, plural -ous·ies for 4.

1. Jealous  resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.

2. Mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.

3. Vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.

4.a Jealous feeling, Disposition state, or mood.

Love Poem Medley by Rudy Francisco 

http://www.luuux.com/entertainment/love-poem-medley-rudy-francisco-poem

Gonna be honest. I have never heard of Rudy Francisco until today in class. When we listened to him recite a poem it really caught my attention. I'm not exactly sure why. But its different. He thinks outside the box, emphasizes on what he means, he takes risks and he says whats on his mind. His work is beautiful. When i read his poems it makes me see and think in ways i didn't know existed. 
  

"I swear that when our lips touch I can taste the next sixty years of my life. And some days I want to swallow stacks of your pictures just so you can be a part of me for a little bit longer". 

Ah! how unreal are those two lines! It's inspiring the way he rearranges his words and makes me feel the way he is feeling for a girl no of us know. She is faceless. Nameless. I know absolutely nothing about her and he makes me want to be her! Every girl in the world longs to have a boy look at her the way Rudy does to this mysterious girl!

"I want you to bite my lip until I can no longer speak. And then suck my ex girlfriend’s name out of my mouth just to make sure she never comes up in our conversations."

POW-ER-FUL! He uses simple words to paint you a picture that is breath-taking! This poem is dripping with stunning imagery. I honestly can't think of a better way to say how phenomenal his work is.

Here's a Toast

Let's make a Toast;;

This is for the recovering addicts. The ones who don't get the time of day from anyone.
This goes out to the girl who is emotionally scarred from your sick intoxicated actions.
This is for the gang member who got shot in the leg last night.
This is for the gang members trying to break out.
This one goes out to you.

Lets make a toast;;

This is for the recovering alcoholics  

This is for the absent faces

This is for the stoners

This one goes out to the lonely

This one is for the afraid

This one is for you

Lets make a toast;; 

This one goes out to the boy in stripped pajama's 

This is for the couple who just lost their first baby 

This is for hungry children in 3rd world countries 

This is for the child with no family 

This is for the lost

This one goes out to you.

Lets make a toast;; 

This is for the athlete in training
This is for the dedicated
This is for the team that took 2nd place
This is for the girls with gold medals
This is for you

Lets make a toast;;

This is for the distance between us.

This is for the boy who stole her heart.

This is for the boy who wont stay outta her mind

This is for the girl who just wants to be loved

This is for the girl that could only handle so much 

This is for the boy who accepts her for who she is

This one goes out to you. 

Lets make a toast;;

This is for the brown people

This is for the golden race

This is for the boys with long hair

This is for the light that tomorrow brings

This is for the determined

Here's a Toast. This one's for you.

Film Analysis

Tangled 

OW: Rapunzel is sick of being stuck up in her tower. All she wants to do in life is see the lights! looks like she would do anything to just see those lights at least once in her life.
Call: Flynn Rider ends up in her tower and she wants him to take her to the lights!
Refusal: Rapunzel is scared to betray her mother and make her upset by leaving the tower, When her mother bluntly and clearly told her not to. 
Mentor: Flynn Rider agrees to take her to the lights only if she promises to give back his tiara. 
Threshold: Flynn opens up Rapunzel's eyes to a new world! And teaches her that life outside the tower isn't as bad as her mother says it is.
Test, Allies, and Enemies: In reality her mother is the worst enemy of all. But she has tricked her daughter into thinking that everything else in the world is bad and the only good things are her mother and the things she provides for her. For Flynn he's running from two large guys he scammed for the tiara!
Approach: In the mist of all the commotion they secretly fall in love with each other. She finally gets her wish on her 18th birthday and gets to witness the night the lanterns are lit and sent away.
Ordeal: Flynn is spotted and is kidnapped, leaving the princess behind left alone. Too her surprise her mother comes to "save the day" when really she is taking her back into hostage.
Reward: Flynn goes to the tower to find Rapunzel there all tied up and he's got himself into a trap. Finally the moment has arrived when they both realize that they love each other.
Road back: Flynn takes Rapunzel to the kingdom
Reconstruction: Flynn realizes that life isnt all about stealing and making money.
Elixir: They get married and Rapunzel gets to finally meet her real parents

Ordinary World

Story:
Meet Blake she has her 18th birthday coming up but she's not that excited because it's never been a big deal before so why should it or why would that change now? she wakes up at the same time every morning and its a guarantee she's late to school every day. She lives the ordinary life. Doesn't recognize a single face when she walks to class in the halls. She is socially awkward, super shy, and now even exactly sure what she's doing here.
Her parents were never married, she doesn't even know who her real dad is. She doesn't get a long with her mom, so going home is hell. Her mom is poor so she walks to and from school every day. She's sick of the life she was given and just has One Wish...

What is that one wish?
Where is her life gonna end up?
How will she ever get out of this mess she calls her life?

Adaption

Don't let go - Spawnbreezie

          A boy has fallen in love with a girl. He tells her she will be just fine and that he will always be there for her if she stays by his side and doesn't let go. He will always be sure to let her know how much he loves her.

Bound to you - Christina Aguilera

          A girl finally opens up to a boy she's fallen hard for. She's finally found a boy she can trust and she's scared. She's been trapped inside her body with all her emotions bundled up inside like a shaken up bottle of coke. She's sure he's her prince charming and she's never going to let him go.

Love Season - J Boog

          They fell in love over long talks and spending all this time together. That being some time ago they are getting ready to go out and he tells her how beautiful she looks. He just wants to be with her and not let anything else happen to get. They are already determining their fates as we speak.

Gandhi

I’m not okay, I’m so not okay.

I used to be the girl who smiled all the time, and now...

I don’t know where she went 

and I miss her.

I don’t want to cry anymore 

I just want things to be the way they were,

I want my life back. 

I want to smile 

and laugh

and be optimistic again.

I want to be myself again.

As she sits in a room full of loud drunks...  

                                                                                                 she watches..

You'd think,

she'd remember that this isn't what she wanted for herself

You'd think she'd remember she had a choice

You'd think she'd remember to dump out her red plastic cup 

You'd think she'd remember to respect herself 

What happened?

She keeps forgetting to breathe 
She keeps forgetting that god gave her a second chance.
She keeps forgetting the most important
She keeps forgetting to remember.

Who is this girl? 

When will she completely own herself again?

Is it even worth the try?

This girl has been to hell and back .
And she might have 100 reasons to quit it.
But she has 101 reasons to keep fighting for it.




And tonight is not the last time she'll see the light.

50/50

Life is all about decisions we make. 

In every action we make. 

every move we take.

The right decision

The wrong decision

Good, Bad

Left or Right

Up or down

Love or Hate

There are so many decisions in life and we are so good at constantly making them that we don't actually realize the things actually going on up there in our minds. I believe that Decisions and Choices are very much alike. In one way or another they are the same thing. Right?

I know people who are so positive about every action they take. And they are so confident and content with their life. Every trial they go through is just like a positive lesson. They aren't afraid. They don't show it at least. Its like they take the bull by the horns like its no big deal. 

I also know some people who aren't very positive about their life and i can see the difference in their life when they are having hard times. 

To me you have a choice about life..  you can either be positive about it and learn from your mistakes. or you can be a bum and get nothing out of the lessons your being put through. God doesn't put you though a situation he knows you can't handle. If we take life for granted we are going to miss out on so much. You gotta know what you got in life and be grateful for the small things! Smile and love as many people as you can. be smart in the decisions you make and do it for yourself.. don't do it out of someone elses eyes.

One word

Shy /SHi/;;
adjective: Having or showing nervousness in the company of other people.

"The way you overcome shyness is to become so wrapped up in something that you forget to be afraid" - lady bird Johnson

Whenever im around you i get this tingly feeling in my belly

That feeling you gave me was nothing like I've ever felt before.

I dont quite know what to do with myself.

Something about you..

Its like you know what my weakness is

It makes me nervous.

You got me lost for words.

And all i can do is think about you.

You've constantly been on my mind

You probably will never know

How you made me feel that night.

And i kinda wish you did...

Maybe you feel the same way about me?

But I doubt it.

So while you go on with your life

Ill be here... thinking about you. 

Blending in with everyone else 

And how i only wish you knew how i felt about you

<3

Direct Orders!

You have been given a direct order to rock the F** out! 

Rock out like you've just been free from house arrest and your no longer stuck in your small cramped up house.

Rock out like you'll never have to wake up @ 6:00 am ever again. 

Rock out like you've just woken up from a terrible dream and you realize its Christmas Morning!

Rock out like you just set that house on fire and you just smoked your first bowl of weed.

Rock out like you've just escaped a concentration camp and the lake next door is screaming "SKINNY DIPPING"

Rock out like your gods gift to this earth

Rock out like your $500 dollar prom dress is on sale for $50 bucks

Rock out like its 1980

Rock out like your gonna die tomorrow

Rock out like its all over

Life or Death?

What is Death? 

is it the end of someone?

Or the beginning of something amazing?

For most, Death occurs unexpectedly. 

You close your eyes because it feels like a small dream.

Count to ten, expecting everything to go back to the way it was.

Open your eyes... Boom. Reality hits.

It isn't a Dream, Nor a joke. 

But simply a wake-up call. A reminder.

To not take life for granted.

You honestly don't know what you have until its gone.

It's the way of life.

It's not easy.

It's quite tough actually.

But what do we have to compare it to?

Everyone has a past, a story that never wants to be told.

Why does everyone seem to wanna speed through life?

Stop and take a look, take a deep breath.

Take the time to do the small things.

Like say I love you.

Smile.

You never know what kind of a day someone is having

Take the time to get to know someone.

Be a friend

And take life day by day

apreciate the little things

you never know who's gonna be gone tomorrow who was here today. 

So.. what is death?

is it the end of something?

or the beginning of something surreal?

You. Tell. Me. <3

Boulevard of broken dreams

I walk alone I walk alone. 

In these crowded hallways full of faceless people. 

Get into the out dated, no license plated ride rolling on E and cruise. 

Driving down a nameless road, Going to a place a I can barely remember. Surrounded by abandoned houses and unfinished half built buildings. 

The car doesn't make it much farther and I get out to walk. I see a house I've never seen before but it brings back the memories I tried to forget. Into the house I walk alone. Trying to recover the memories I never wanted to remember, I recognize a chair. 

The one we use to sit on and watch our old time favorite movies. Yeah that chair. 

Down the hall I see a door barely open, i walk in and see nothing but a beat-up dresser. i open the drawer and in it is a letter 

"You were all i ever had, all i ever wanted, all i ever needed. 'I should've been a better man. Instead of wasting time spending my life searching for the finer things. You always gave me another chance to make it right. But I didn't deserve, cause I didn't understand. You can blame it all on me. I know it’s like this because of me. Now I’m just like a hitchhiker waiting for a ride. With no cars in sight.' I should of never let you go. I walk alone."

I walk alone. I walk alone. With tears running down my cheek i leave this place. On the road back to nowhere i turn around and look back on the life i tried to forget. My dreams. My ambitions are buried in this hell hole. 

I turn around and keep walking.

 

Im thinking about you..

I'm thinking about you.
I'm thinking about you like time thinks about t.i.c.k.i.n.g.
like fingers think about picking
like guests think about $tipping$


I'm thinking about you like earphones think about ears and ears think about listening..to music, and music thinks about lyrics and lyrics think about rhythms.

I'm thinking about you like birds think about flying. 
Like rich people think about dining.
and poor people think about dining. 

I'm thinking about you like peanut thinks about butter and butter thinks about jelly.
Like socks think about being smelly 
Like buddah thinks about his belly 

Im thinking about you like eyes think about eyelashes
like waves think about splashes 
like poses think about flashes 

I'm thinking about you like hearts think about beating 
And she thinks about meeting...Him. 

I'm thinking about how much i CANT stop thinking about you.

Intro

The best dreams happen when you’re awake.

Love is...

Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.

 

 

 

Love is a Blank Poem

Love is Oxygen 

Love is a Question Mark?

Love is thee Answer